Goals

I have been thinking and reading and falling down the youtube channel black holes about goals.  Motivation. 

I ran into Coach Stevo's blog.  He has a lot to say about goals.

A lot of people tell him they "want to run a marathon."

He answers "You want to be the type of person who runs marathons."

What type of person runs marathons?

Collette types.  Rick types.  Megan types.  My whole stinkin family excepts me types. 

Rick ran a marathon, and that afternoon was playing in the back yard with Micah.  I remember him playing with the kids and that impressed me more than him running for two or three hours that morning.  Wasn't he supposed to be getting a massage and lying in bed and eating?  He had just run a freaking marathon.  And he is playing, actively playing, with the kids.

I want to be the type of person that does jump up and run around and mess around with my kids. 

I don't want my training to make it so I don't enjoy and live the other 23 hours of the day.  Fitness should allow me to move more, lift more, and be more.  So I can play.  And play hard.

So nothing is too hard.  Too tiring. 

What do I really want? 

Nat and I signed up to run the Spartan this June.  And I am starting to comprehend how much my upper body can be improved.  So I can actually pass a few of the obstacles.  Upper body strength is mandatory. 

Who do I really want to be?

I find myself thinking about the gospel and fitness.  Both have to be worked for everyday.  To be stronger, physically and spiritually.

I haven't been feeding my spirit solid lately. The person I want to be receives revelation and acts on promptings.  For people outside of family.  The person I want to be does her visiting teaching because she loves visiting her people. 

I have felt an increase of patience with my boys lately.  Increase of love. 

What kind of Mom am I?  Want to be?

I think my love language is food.  If someone is hurt or needs celebrating, I want to make them food.

Balanced.   I want balance.  If there is such a thing.  Maybe not balance, but mindful accomplishment.

And time.  I want to take more time with my boys.